I spent the first 12 years of my life living with my grandparents. People would ask me if I ever felt lonely as an only child. In college when my roommates’ siblings visited I thought I would have liked to have a sister. As a child growing up I never felt lonely. Not even when I was alone, because I always sensed spirits around me no matter where I went, whom I spent time with or what I did.
In solitude I spoke with these beautiful, generous, loving, often humorous and sometimes mischievous beings. From trees to blooms, magpies to crows and how my great-grandmother took her last breath, I knew when another being was around, and what they said. In their presence, I felt no fear, and thought everyone else knew about them too. My grandmother is a Traditional Chinese poet, calligrapher and watercolor painter who specialized in painting lotuses. When I told her what I saw, heard or felt she’d listen with a smile, often nodding and then tell me to not share it with anyone else because they’d be afraid of hearing a kid talk about things they couldn’t see. “But we can’t see air or our breath and still breathe,” I’d say. Overtime, I stopped talking about them because it just felt easier and safer as I became older.
Moving from Beijing to Charlotte in 7th grade to live full-time with my parents turned life upside down and I was suddenly a teenager on a foreign land. “Hello. Thank you. My name is Angela. How do you do?” were takeaways from English classes in China and I broke a sweat just trying to get these words out, to strangers, in a language I didn’t know. I felt as if I’d lost my sight and hearing. At the same time, speaking less opened me to seeing, hearing and sensing everything in newer, deeper ways. Like many immigrant parents mine asked me to focus on my education and then career so like a good Chinese daughter I did and shut off my connections to the spirit realms.
After completing my bachelor’s and master’s degrees along with a heck of a ride through culinary school in New York City I became a Management Consultant in a global consulting firm to help Fortune 100 companies adopt people, process and technology changes. Following everyone else’s definitions of success became my priority. I thought making my own American Dream come true with a growing six-figure salary, targeting my next promotion, marrying a good egg and getting the keys to our first Mercedes would make me feel lighter, happier and free. Occupation is not fulfillment. Behind successes on the exterior I felt lifeless and everyday a voice within told me I was drifting from the path I came here to walk.
After a series of mental, physical depletions and relationship crisis I turned to my energetic gifts for answers and reconnected with my guides, ancestors, ascended teachers and masters in the spirit realms. This return, along with my own decade-long Soul Path healing and activation journeys, and motherhood, sent me away from my corporate career to honor the path my soul had always known. Clarity is power. I founded Essence Wellness Design to keep your connection to your sacred path alive and strong. Let’s start remembering why you chose Earth as home at this time.